Even thought we know that God has called us to be here in Uganda, some days it is tough to be away from family and friends. Usually when we write the blog, we try to do it more in the third person. Today is a very personal post so I (Lorenda) will be writing in the first person.
Today is one of those tough days as it is the third anniversary of my dad’s death. Thanks to modern technology, I was able to speak with my mom. She is so amazing and has become such a strong and determined woman- I am so proud of her. Still, it is a difficult day and I wish that I could be with her instead of just talking to her from half way around the world. However, we know that God has called us here and He can care for my mom way better than I ever could.
Also, my “mommy heart” is breaking as I wish that I could hold my little girl and her husband (Charissa and Justin) in my arms. In November they found out that they may not be able to have children. Last week, following an appointment with a specialist, the diagnosis was confirmed and they will not be able to have children. As a way of funneling that pain and also to chronicle their adoption journey, they have created a blog. Check it out if you are interested in hearing their story and learning about the journey they are now on. The address for the blog is howtobuildafamily.blogspot.com
As we prepared to come here, we saw how God built up communities around each of our children. They all have amazing friends and church communities. Our daughters both have great husbands who have wonderful families that provide them with support. So when Satan tries to tell me that I am a loser mom for being here when Charissa and Justin need me, I can praise God for Justin’s parents, Ken and Jo. When Satan tried to tell me that Courtney and the kids couldn’t do without me while Cam was in India, I could thank God for Cam’s parents, Terry and Thelma and for my mom who spent some time with Courtney and the kids. God has us here for a purpose and I am not going to allow Satan to take away from that purpose by feeling guilty.
Thank you to all of you who are part of the community supporting my mom and each of our children. We love you and we thank God for you.
We love you and miss you a lot. God is at work in our lives! Even if you guys aren't here. I'm so excited to come and visit in June, it will help take a load off from all the adoption stuff. Just want to give you some comfort in knowing that people here are really giving us positive feedback from our blog, and it has really been freeing for me to share my thoughts and feelings with the world around me. I love you guys so much, thanks for sharing my blog on here, and I can't wait to see you in June!
ReplyDeleteP.S. I'm looking forward to the guarantee of warm weather.... it's not so guaranteed here.
We are very exited to have you come and all our Ugandan friends are excited to meet you too. I know that God is caring for all of you and He has been preparing all of us for this trip for a long time now. I love you.
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ReplyDeleteHear my cry, O God; From the end of the earth I call to Thee, when my heart is faint; Lead me to the Rock that is higher than I. For Thou hast been a refuge for me, a tower of strength against my enemy. Let me dwell in Thy tent forever; Let me take refuge in the shelter of Thy wings.
Be encouraged that God does hear your hearts cry, but know that He also provides the shelter and strength to help us through. Our prayers are with you and your family.
Lydine
That's Lydine. We know that is the prayers of God's people that are getting us through each day. Thanks for your encouragement and prayers.
DeleteThe above was supposed to say "Thanks Lydine", not "That's Lydine". Typing at 6AM isn't always a good idea!
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